I just wonder what exactly I am fighting for.  Should I really carry out a rebellion in Hispanic America to build a new republic outside of the Spanish rule?  Or should I rather just prevent that any Creole rebellion will destroy that little peace and order a central government in Madrid represents and our nations were not precisely characterized for having in uptime timeline?

It is weird.  Here in New Orleans I realized that I am technically a Spanish citizen.  Lozano and I are Spanish citizens in a country that is in foot of war against Spain, at the time a peace congress is carried out in Frankfurt am Main.  Well.  There is no war still.  Not a declared hot war at least.  Anyhow, despite my uptime friends are willing to help me in my revolution and Lozano is assuming the role of a representative of that revolution, I actually feel we probably do not need such revolution.

Well.  We have proclaimed the Free State of Darien, as a revolutionary state under which my army is being trained, but who is not public in any sense yet.  And we have not stated either if we are to become a republic nor a state into a Columbian republic, nor and autonomous state subject to the Spanish monarch. As talking with the Cuna and the Embera, they are very prevented on a Creole regime in New Granada so if I am unable to fulfill my promise to them, they would be better under a Spanish monarchic rule than on a Creole republican one.

So, I wonder.  Would an opportunistic rebellion under a USA-Spanish war be the best for the people of New Granada?  If that happens, I guess my role is to balance things out to favor my people, the people I have promise something back in New Granada.  This means that if I have to become allied with the Carlists or the Fenandists or the USA or the UK or Cascadia or Greece or the Republicanists or whatever, I will.  Whoever that can grant me that the peoples of the Free State of Darien, regardless of race or ethnicity, can prosper and live as free people in Darien and will be allowed to interact as free people with any trading partner.

I let time to lead my way.  For the moment, the stronger I get, the better to balance things out when time comes.  I will left Lozano properly introduced in Washington and then go back to New Granada, to either Cartagena or Darien, and to check how Prudencio has been doing.

I know Lozano has another interpretation on things.  I think it is too early to comment these thoughts of mine with him yet.  Tomorrow we will leave for Virginia with Tom and Vegard.  Vegard has promised a big birthday party for Tom on board next Friday.  I don't know what he means if this is to be something bigger than all these nights in New Orleans.

-- Carlos E. T. Pinzón G.
   New Orleans, Louisiana, USA.